lesson #47: Find your calling...

what am i doin? good question..
what on earth am i doin? an even better question..

so maybe that question ain't supposed to be left unanswered anyway.. maybe there IS an answer.. and one that you'd wanna know..

well, most of this came from a talk with my Dad.. about life.. my life.. and how i'm livin it..

the most important thing i did in my life was knowin God.. and the next important thing i gotta do is probably be to find my calling.. my purpose here n now.. my purpose of life given where i am, what i know, who i live with today.. i'm sorry if this sounds confusing, but i can't help it.. if life ever felt boring, it's probably cuz we ain't livin life as we were meant to..

and everyone's different.. so maybe what people think is boring might not have to be boring for me.. and the other way around.. so maybe i gotta find my own track n stop tryin to fit my wheels into someone else's rail track..

the tough thing is, life goes on, and time goes forward.. this second is gone once the next has come.. and time ain't reversible.. this means, from time to time, my calling may change.. and i gotta keep following where it goes..

interestingly, the search for a calling is undoubtedly a search for The Creator Himself and what He wants for my life.. if i have learned anythin highly important this past one month, it'd be that life is short.. the Earth has been here for a while.. there were people who lived before me.. there are people who'll continue to live after i die.. only one has been here from the start and will stay til the end.. and that'd be God.. (for those who don't believe in God, u'd at the very least still believe that u would not outlive the sun, moon, earth, or the stars.. )

the point is, life is friggin short..
and it'd be damn good if i could say "Vini, vidi, vici" in this life.. but it's definitely a lot easier said than done.. cuz i'd usually pass the "vini" part but get choked right after "vidi" and too beat to reach "vici"...

to create a possibility of winning a game, at least i gotta know what game i'm in.. to actually win it, i might have to find the game that i can win in, in the first place.. in life, maybe it's time for us to find our own ace game - and let others find theirs..

Find your calling. It's probably the next best thing you gotta do after knowin God.